A Note from Pastor Bud …
Wednesday, September 8th, 2010The Place of Questions in the Practice of our Faith(The following story is by Wendell Berry, a writer, teacher and farmer who lives with his family and farms in Kentucky)Jaber Crow was born in Goforth, Kentucky. His parents died within a month of each other when he was only three months old. For the next ten years, he stayed with his aunt and uncle, a fine loving couple. They died and he was placed in an orphanage, which was not a happy experience, but he survived. Things got better for him when he thought he had a “call” from God. He loved books and was a good student. However the bible faced him with important and unanswered questions. Finally, he got up the nerve to confront a professor who was known behind his back as “Old Grit.” He was a professor to be feared. What follows is the dialogue between them:Student, “I have a lot of questions.” Professor, “Perhaps you would like to say what they are.” Student, “Well, for instance Jesus said for us to love our enemies, how can it ever be right to kill our enemies? And if he said not to pray in public, how come we’re all the time praying in public? And if Jesus’ own prayer in the Garden wasn’t granted, what is there for us to pray for, except ‘thy will be done’ which there’s no use in praying, because it will be done anyhow.” Professor, “You have any more?” Student, “Well, for instance, suppose you prayed for something and you got it, how do you know how you got it? How do you know you didn’t get it because you were going to get it whether you prayed or not? So how do you know if it does any good to pray? You would need proof, wouldn’t you?” The professor nodded. Student, “But there is no way to get proof.” The professor agreed and then asked, “Do you have an answer?” Student, “No—so I reckon what it all comes down to is how can I preach if I don’t have any answers?” Professor, “No, I don’t believe you can.” Student, “For a while, I had this feeling that maybe I had been called.” Professor, “You may have been right. But not to what you thought. Not to what you think. You have been given questions to which you cannot be given answers. You will have to live them out, perhaps a little at a time.” Student, “And how long will that take?” Professor, “I don’t know. As long as you live perhaps.” Student, “That could be a long time.” Professor, “I will tell you a further mystery. It may take longer.”During the course of my long life, I have grown suspicious of what has been called an “answering theology.” Some years ago a slogan was flying around the country, bumper stickers, etc., “Jesus is the answer.” Answer to what? So many of the cock-sure answers I have received on television and elsewhere seem to be given by people who haven’t been living where I am living. It has also been my experience that many of the questions I struggle with today, I will probably be struggling with tomorrow and the next day. I have come to believe that an active faith has a bunch of questions following in its shadows. Henri Nowen, “The voice of God speaks only through wounded selves.”
Peace, Pastor Bud
